On a lighter vein, than what I've felt today, PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU can ascertain the meaning of THIS?

He was just flat out not making any sense, coke and all, but he could have been saying that he believes his own lies so much that he can convince him self he can make it happen and that the others are cowards to do what he is setting out to do. And that in his mind they are sitting in judgment of him, but he is doing it.